What in hell? - Adios, ShaveLabos

You're not weak, you just have vulnerable areas. A man doesn't need to feel shame for feeling pain when he gets hit in the groin, does he?

What has it been, almost ten years now? You came back from California and we met in the friendlies parking lot with Joel. We talked about the dark tower, which you had read on the bus. My point is that you've always been how I've wanted to be.

You have many friends who care about you; when you do work, you find it stimulating and maybe even enjoyable sometimes; you write and speak with eloquence; you have a firm understanding of science, but you can also appreciate the arts; you sing. I know the grass is always greener, and I'm really not one for envy, but if I were, you'd be one of the people I'd thing about trading places with.

Even at your worst I've always looked up to you.

Words are only words, and there's no magic rhetoric to make things better, but you're in all our thoughts. One time when I was really down you asked me if I had ever been to a party with a friend who got really drunk, and had had to shepherd him home; that I was able to point him in the general direction and keep him from falling over. (blah, you said it better). Anyway, you said that sometimes a person has to be that kind of friend to themselves--and stumble along in the right direction, concentrating mostly on getting there in one piece than anything else, but that they will get there eventually. So now, like a decade long game of telephone I guess I am returning the advice to you. Ｉstill think it is good advice, and I've thought of it often, but I'm afraid you'll probably have to remember what you told me originally for it to work because I just reread my version and it doesn't seem to communicate well.

Wish I was in town. Let me know if you change your mind about moving to Alaska, we can go to Safeway or something.

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